Fucking Simple.

   What happens when you utilize therapy to let go of some long held feeling? I speak for myself when I say, fanfuckingtastic. Inflamed with capability, that’s where I was at. Stress adding up, thinning, constricting life, suffering. I’ve found it to be, an energy problem, later revealed as inflammation. Lack of balance, lack of awareness. Desiring to take part within the intimate landscape flowing waves and tides we create acting as ripples past time within streams and connects, yes, more of that and yes. But how to get to that? That’s where I was at, I needed ahem, apparently, a vacation. Some would say mani/pedi. Some said pussy some, dick. I said, a damn hike. Each year I’d finally take that damn hike and each time I would fall quite ill. Still holding down a 36-42 hour 6 day a week job that I was blessed with, but by this time last year I was booted from the place I had been living and raising my son as he attended a local school nearby. After moving last year I was also shortly let go from my job. But so very grateful as I had come too far and continue to grow stronger regardless. I had found another loop I needed to get out of, like the prior survival mode loop my physical body had been trapped in. So much had seemed to have gone down in these last 10 years that my actual structure, fluid, and mass wanted no more keeping up with the past. All the stress, no release, stuck on repeat.

   Sound familiar? We block ourselves from reaching where we want to be. I found what I needed was to hold space for myself. After much practice and self care I opened that door for me, I was free. Free to express and recieve healing not just for me. What happens when you let go of some long held belief? Joy and then peace is what found me as I let those beliefs slip by. Those beliefs and feelings that no longer served me, dissolved within the abundant energy found everywhere, within and around all things. Sure, if you have specific visions that focuses someone else’s idea, that’s mighty powerful too. But imagine what happens when you let that belief disappear? Is it scary at first? Sure.  Is there consequence, guilt, shame, envy? Is there liberation, unconditional love, shadow, light, weight? The power is how we get to choose. There may be many layers, depths, or levels of other’s energy has been impressed upon us over time, shading, or adding light that projects these ideas through focused points, but ultimately it takes each one to make the whole. Every individual, variable, factor, decision flows through all, in and around me and you. Ask yourself the hard questions, you own that to you. But how to get to that? You keep doing, you keep trying and you will get to where you want or need to be, as long as you let go and allow it.

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